20 Rejections

I want to get rejected 20 times. Actually I want to get 20 rejections from potential clients as well as 20 rejections from “personal quests”.

Why?

Because I sometimes live in fear. I am too afraid to ask, too afraid to speak or take the next step. And I want it so much, and I am quite unhappy when my thoughts hold me back.

As a child, I was quite extraverted, playful, loud and laughing, but during my teenage years I quieted down. I’ve noticed that my “defense” systems are working against me. Too many times I want to do something and I “pass it by” without even trying to ask.

Since starting this challenge yesterday, I’ve already played handpan on the streets of Ericeira, Portugal. I’ve also banged a gong before the beach meditation session. Interesting how people just let you do the things you want to do IF you allow yourself to ask.

I will keep you updated on this challenge, especially if something interesting comes out of it.